I've been thinking a lot lately.. About this one thing I dont think I can ever get.. ****.. I know you all know what it is.. But I always daydream how it is like to have it.. In my daydreams.. Pictures of my friends always pops up.. The one who are very lucky to have it and are destined to let it be that way.. Keeping it safe from any disturbance.. I don't know why I kept thinking about it.. It is as if I need it so badly.. Is it that important?? I once heard this saying.. Have you ever felt that you want something so badly but you know you'll never get it?? Well, actually this is mostly like that.. It is like a tiny voice in my mind is shouting.. "Go on!! Take it.. You know you want to.. It is not that far away.." But I just cant.. I dont really know why.. I need help a.s.a.p...